An irreplaceable me

I always try to get what I want.  I pray and I believe what I want is driven by the calling of God and I try to pursue.

Recently, I try to be mature.  My desire of being a grown up woman is so strong.  Normally, girls at my age are considered as mature women.  However, I am still at college and I am taken good care of by my parents.  I don't feel like I am a woman even though I have my own thoughts, I have my own dreams.  I have a boyfriend but I don't think I am mature enough to be with him.  I feel like a little girl when I am around him and I sometimes even feel like we are in that kind of relationship will never come up with a "let's live together" decision because I am too young.

I asked God to bring me the one.  The one that I am longing for and the one who loves God first, and loves me unconditionally, take care of me and lead me in life and I am irreplaceable.  IRREPLACEABLE.  When will I meet that person who considers me as irreplaceable?  Jesus told me as a woman, I don't need to strive or arrange, I don't need to make it happen.  He wants me to respond---like how I responded to Him.

Jesus said I am his irreplaceable daughter, and He promised He will bring me the best, as long as I wait with patience.  And yet, I am still waiting.