The Fears

I am weird.

When I am afraid of something, means I want that thing. But when the thing I want invites me to come, I hold back. I reject. I feel like the invitation is not real, then I would be really upset. I know the reason, I know is just because of the fears I have.

I fear that I can never get the thing I want, I fear that I don't have the strength to chase for my goals. I fear that the people I love would not love me back. I fear that God would not help me out and show me directions. They are scary. Very scary.

Who can I ask help from? Do I trust the Lord? Or in other words, am I willing to let go all my fears and go to God and ask Him for help, that I know FOR SURE He will help?

We seldom have fear in those things that we are able to achieve. A man's basic sin is his choice to offer strength only in those situations where he knows things will go well. In this situation, man has no fear, but he fear to face challenges, face the difficultities.However, the fear is real, is our true selves. I read, and I talked to awesome people, I learnt that, yes, fear is not good, but it is good when you turn to God.

God invites us to ask Him for help when we have fears. He loves it when we gripped with doubts and fears that He can not help but turn out He shows us HOPE. That's why He is awesome, that is the way He shows He is God.

God calls us to stop hiding. Fear is the true, is the feeling that we truly feel. We are weak, but God helps us to become stronger in our fears. He is our helper.

I don't know how to hide my fears, but I try to give all my fears to God. I want to seek for wisdom from the Lord, I need Him to comfort me, to heal me. And, I am so ready to become a stronger woman.